I try to be as transparent as possible, but this one is hard; I got fired on Wednesday from my college teaching job, effective immediately. At least I don't have to deal with the long goodbye of my Warner gig, where my contract wasn't renewed and I was a lame duck from March through May.
In the long term, it seems to be for the best. I have struggled with depression and anxiety most of my life, and it makes it hard for me to be "on" in the classroom for long stretches and hard to focus on grading papers.
It's been a stretch for me to hold the 6-9:40 classes that an adult-ed night schedule calls for; stress-induced asthma sometimes kicked in to cut things short and panic attacks without breathing problems hit at other times. Many nights, I had to resort to pointing students to a previously recorded podcast because I wasn't up to teaching that night.
The three weeks out with bronchitis was the last straw for the powers that be; I wasn't delivering the goods I was being hired to do, as much as I was trying to.
I still have my on-line finance tutoring gig; right now, it's one night a week for this term, but I'll be up to 20-hours a week in a 9PM-1AM slot starting in January. That's not enough to keep all the bills paid, but it will at least bring in enough cash to pay the basics.
I don't think I'm cut out to be a classroom teacher. I have the intellect for it and the caring, but not the persona. That's hard to accept, especially when I went on to get a doctorate to do just that.
Now, that PhD tends to hang like an albatross on my resume. "Why do I want to hire a PhD for [insert entry-level business job]?" is the question my resume gets when it shows up; I have talent, but I don't fit the mold. Somehow, I have to get someone to look past that and give me a chance, and I have to have the courage and confidence to try to find that person.
Yes, God is in control, but barring a word of knowledge, I have to jump through the normal job-hoops.
Any practical suggestions? Even better, any job leads that you could vouch for personally where you might be able to get my foot in the door for an interview. I'm in Lexington, KY but could relocate for the right position.
I'm good with spreadsheets, can program in Visual Basic and a little C++ and have business schooling up the wazoo (PhD and MBA in Finance and BBA in Accounting along with a BS in Political Science) and have worked as an accountant for three years, albeit in a hospital finance setting that falls through the standard AR/AP/Payroll/GL slots that accounting positions generally look for.
I have a lot of people in the Peanut Gallery who care deeply about me and I take comfort in that. I'll need to take more comfort in that as the give-and-take on current events I got from my students and colleagues at work is now gone.